work
about
an archival collection of the misty unconditional
core we constitute and are constituted around.
«Such mist can be described as the dreamy,
foggy, steamy matter, or to put it differently,
an uncontrollable and wet foam of imagination.»
(Kunst, 2020)
This uncontrollable wet foam is everywhere, in every
last corner of us between and around us and its
uncontrollability, intangibility, is terrifying.
This is why not only many people but also many institutions ignore and erase their irrational, foggy, impossible core and tell themselves stories they can control;
stories of fixed places, linear progression, and causality, rules of behavior, and fictitious protocols that must be followed; colonial bullshit of a past which is horrendously present in here and now.
(How) Is it possible not to reject but to acknowledge and take care of this foggy, imaginative, dreamy core,
that «is composed of a multitude of fragments, rather
than of smooth epistemological wholes.
Some fragments will be collected here and bound
temporarily together to form a loosely integrated net –
«or, better, an unassimilated hybrid, a monstrous body» (Monster Culture (Seven Thesis), J.J. Cohen).
This monstrous misty core body consists of unanswered questions, late-night conversations, disagreements, unfinished stories, the killed darlings, theory and headaches, warm hugs, WhatsApp-messages, cold after-work-beeeeeers, schedules and imaginary budgets that might at some point trespass the borders of fictionality and manifest in real $$$$$.
Through sitting with the (im)possibility of acknowledging and taking care of the misty unconditional core that immediately slips your grip as you try to grasp it, we learned that «research does not have to be complete, finished, exhaustive (and exhausting), «[our attention was drawn] to the search in research, so this work is at its heart, searching,
open-ended and generative» (Desai, 2020).
We don’t think it will ever be finished.
And no, we don’t know what we are doing.